Wednesday, July 28, 2004
i hope there won't be anymore problems between us.. lets be just as happy, like we were last time. please? can you reassure me this fact? gimme a call when u read this ok? anytime, even if its 4am ok? if u read this and u know i'm having lessons, at least leave me a voice mail or sms or sth? can? please..i didn't mean to hurt you so bad.. but i'm equally hurt by you. .
apologies.
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
new pix in cjc jae uploaded.. check it out.. cheers!! ps: the captions are pretty bland.. i've no time to write fancy/funny ones.. sorrie ppl!!don't bother abt the previous post. i just had to let it out. don't bother to ask me what/who is it or referring to.. i won't say anyway.
had pw block period toady. kinda slacky day, but nonetheless, still quite shagged. must be due to lack of sleep lahz.. going to have loads of tests coming up.. if i'm not mistaken, a mock GP and Math test next Wed.. sigh..
juz did COLAC.. got 7/12 for first attempt.. quite good already lahz.. don't think i will take the second attempt. haha.. anyway, shall be back to doing my errrsss.. work.. yupz.. so ciao!! haha..
"the sadness overwhelms until i hear from you, all happy and bright"
to you:
i'm really sorry.
time is what i want.
don't be upset with me.
i appreciated what you did, and i'm sorry i was like that.
please forget the incident ok?
and please don't repeat the things u did to me today.
i can feel it when it was leaving.
i felt it the last time remember?
hopefully, it won't go back to that state again.
please don't make it that way okay?
tears have been free flowing the past 2 days.
i hope it will stop today.
you know who you are.
call me when you have simmered down.
once again, i'm sorry.
forgive me ok?
tell that to me.
even if you have to call me at midnight.
argh!! hw is piling up.. and i'm having trouble clearing it.. damn..
"what are you doing in JC?..... such a tragic waste of talent" lolz..
Sunday, July 25, 2004
anyway people, its time for me to sleep.. wonder y i'm posting this.. but oh well.. haha.. nitez world!!:D
some ppl should just mind their own business. it really gets on my nerve when ppl poke their humongous round(not fat. fat is too cliche) noses into my private life. PRIVATE life. its fine if you want to bother abt my social, sch blah blah blah life. but not private! private. i'm sure there must be some meaning to that word which u obviously do not understand. screw you man!
Saturday, July 24, 2004
mmm.. nth much happening.. had a great escapade just now in sch.. shan't elaborate more.. CJC teachers read blogs.. haha.. must be careful..ok now.. reminiscing the past.. a fun 'sport' when the memories are simply "delicious".. haha.. the fond memories recollected makes one go 'awwwwww'.. haha.. boyfriend brings girlfriend to eat at the first place where we went to when we first dated.. is that sweet or sweet?
i don't sound very erm, educated ya? haha.. short, abrupt sentences.. but oh well, its like in the middle of the night, and i'm tired.. so yup, u go formulate the contents.. besides, we are encouraged to do self-study, and not be spoon fed right? haha..
all in all, when boy loves girl, everything is just great!
adios~
Thursday, July 22, 2004
youcompleteme. (:
-ming
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
hello world..been MIA for the past few days.. have been busy busy busy... here are some highlights..
friday:
went for briefing for the CIP.. took a hell lot of my time.. wasted like 4 bloody hrs at bukit merah? haha.. but thats besides the pt lahz.. after that, went for supper with ming at my place.. chomps was still so crowded at like mid night, so we ta pow and went to my place to eat.. piggy backed her round the pool in the middle of the night after supper.. so nice.. so sweet :)
sunday:
did the CIP.. was late.. haha.. cuz chu's train came like 40 min late? haha.. anyway, was throwned into some jungle.. fed many mosquitoes.. haha.. i'm so charitable huh.. donating blood to so many lifes ok.. are u proud of me? hehe..
today:
didn't have cca today, so went shopping in town with ming.. item(s) bought: ear-rings. haha.. wow. haha.. took many photos.. shall be adding the link soon.. :)
some sch matters.. meet parents on sat.. sigh.. haha..
to hao and chu:: sorry guys!! haven't been keeping u ppl company.. kept running away after school.. haha.. real sorry k? i will give u guys a treat the next time we get to go out okie? prob some shark yes? haha.. cheers manx!!
will update soon.. till then, miss u ppl lots lots.. love ya ming..
cheers!
Thursday, July 15, 2004
'calling people' shall be my topic for the day..i'm not talking about using the phone to call people.. i'm referring to the way in which we call people when we see them.. things like hello, hey, yo, hi, dear, honey, darling, brudda, sista etc...
the way one adresses someone speaks a thousand words. from the salutation, things like how the two people are related can be found out.
brudda, sista.. these show that the two are extremely close/good friends, almost like brothers and sisters. but sadly, these terms are used so commonly that it makes no meaning to call your best friend that.. people you don't even know, say people you never met before could be addressed as brother.
the most general 'introductory call' people give are hey, hello, hi, yo.. these are used generally for everyone, best friend, enemy, mother, father.. there's nothing much you can read from this, unless you add tone to it.
the most sensitive of them are terms like dear, darling, honey.. terms used by couples to call each other. or, for girls, its not strange for them to greet each other this way too.. but if 2 guys say any of these terms, they would get weird stares.. such is human nature..
let us not digress.. these so called 'loving and romantic' terms should be used exclusively.. i mean if teachers call students that, its fine. don't ask why. but when a gal/guy calls a guy/gal using these relatively sweet terms, one should be careful and use them appropriately.
what would a friend from an opposite sex think or feel when suddenly, you call him/her dear or darling? it sounds wrong isn't it? they are, after all, mutual friends. how would his/her partner feel when he/she finds out that you called a mutual friend dear? though there is love between them, its only human nature to think too much into the words used. and serious consequenses may result too.
so people, do remember this. the next time you call someone, use the right salutation yes? the right start to the conversation would make the conversation go the right way.
probably in my next entry, i shall talk about 'tone'.. haha..
smile world!! :)
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
i have been meeting dear for the past month.. feels great.. through happiness, sadness, excitment, jealousy.. every possible emotion was seen and felt.. :) thanks a billion.. love ya loads! new pix uploaded in cjc jae.. frm pix 20 onwards.. 'is gossiping bad' shall be my next write up.. you might find me talking about totally different things in each paragraph, but its just like a brainstorm thingy.. yup, so enjoy, if u bother to read.. :)everyone has his/her fair share of gossiping. without realising, most of our conversations are based on gossiping. we talk about other people, what they do, what they are like, so on and so forth. so, is gossiping bad?
well, i guess its bad when it gets to the other person's ear. the consequence would be disastrous. but then again, if we don't gossip, what would our daily conversations be about? surely you wont be talking about the weather and work the whole time right? i'm sure deeper conversations would include things like communication and love. but when examples are cited, don't the examples come from real life experiences of someone else?
being humans, we can't help but judge other people and this gives rise to our frequent gossips. it can't be helped. people are free to give judgement. hey, its a free world out there.
its good that sometimes, people voice out how they feel about someone else. if not, the person might just go berserk if he keeps it to himself. but is it bad to gossip? the person listening to his/her friend gossip, is he going to be swayed in his judgement about the person in subject?
i guess in that sense, the gossip-er is bad. he puts up an impression of another person, which might not be totally true. and what's worse, he might even influence his/her friend to be prejudice against a particular person.
i can therefore say that gossiping isn't that bad, but it is the consequences and impact it has on another person that is bad. well, things like the person finding out that you are talking behind his/her back or the way condemned would feel. the emotions running through, the mental and psychological state.
though people i know generally hate gossipers, one cannot but listen to what's being said. i mean, it wouldn't hurt to know more about that person is thought to be, what the person has done to achieve such status.. haha..
oh well, this might be a senseless entry.. i think so too.. but i just felt like writing about something, and this topic came to mind. i don't even have enough points to talk about.. haha.. oh well, hopefully the next write up would be more interesting..
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
i'm using ming's lap-top to write this post.. the battery is dying so i'll make it quick.. most of my results are back. i got:D for econs
D for maths
D for physics
XX for lit
D7 for chinese
C5 for english..
other then lit, i know everything else.. sheeeesssss... it sucks right? probably i will get another D.. and you can go ask me 4D.. ok not funny..
ne way, shall check in some time soon.. chill ppl..
Saturday, July 10, 2004
today, i'll talk abt "the impossibility of multi-tasking", since nothing much has happened so far..many people have different styles of working. some work well in groups, some work well with music blasted at maximum. but all in all, what matters most is that work would be done in the most effective way.
but lets do some in depth thinking. is multi-tasking really possible? oh before that, i shall narrow the scope to doing 2 kinds of work. one is the task at hand, the other,'distractions'. i'm not a wild fan of doing work with external distractions.
lets face it, while doing work with music, if the song that is being played happens to be your favourite, won't you lose your focus and start to sing along, or at least hum along with the song? how productive can one get if not 100% of the effort is placed on what you do?
SMSes. another major distraction. well, no one can deny that the handphone is almost a necessity. everyone looks forward to receiving messages. though i'm not a big fan of distractions, this is one area which i succumb too! which is bad bad bad. why bad? well, everyone should be able understand lah, huh?
another major illness of us, young singaporeans, is the ease at which we are able to access the internet. and most of us are online every other day. and whilst online, logging on to MSN messanger is one of the first things we do. i shall not degrade the human kind by explaining what this msn messanger thingy is abt. but anyway, is it really possible to do work and chat?
if it's project work, or a discussion has to be done, ok, its fine. but i'm talking about going online, leaving it on to chat, and start, or try to do some work. its almost impossible if you are chatting. i can never master this skill of chatting and doing work at the same time. maybe someone can enlighten me on how this is done?
i'm giving simple examples which can be related to the dialy life of a singaporean teenager.
there is time for everything. when out to play, play hard. when doing work, be serious. its easier said then done. yes, everyone reading this knows its cliche and its easier said then done. i agree. really.
at our age, the brain is apt to do only one thing at a time. one thing. not two things. i'm sure everyone has, in some stage of their lives, played this game, where you try to draw a circle with one hand and a square with the other continuously. how successful were you? maybe this might be a good judge on whether two different things can be done at ther same time?
i admit i might be baised in this short, generalised write-up. but hey, everyone is entitled to his own opinion right? this is not some analysis, where i give both sides. i'm just giving my take on the issue. accept it or not, its up to you.
Thursday, July 08, 2004
i'm so in the mood to write today.. haha.. i dunno why.. okay, now what shall i talk about?lets talk a little about love.
love. expressed in many ways. at the mere sound of the word love, one quickly associates it with a deep liking for another person. well, since its such a common meaning, i guess i shall talk a little about it.
how do ppl show their love and affection for one another? simple things like, dropping msgs, holding hands, just sitting quietly, etc... all these are different means of showing love. making love is another way. like duh, even the word tells you so. but thats too far off to think at this young, tender age.
a boy-gal relationship. now, is that called love? or is it infatuation? well, thats besides the point. love is shown in many different ways. the way one couple shows affection might be totally different from the way another couple does. should one get jealous/envious when he/she hears the things other couples do which his/her partner doesn't give?
but have you stopped and wondered whether your partner showers his/her love to you in his/her own special and unique way, which others are jealous of? you might take it for granted since you don't find it anything special.
happiness can be attained from love. a happy person is a loved person. a loved person is a happy person. when you love someone, you are committing yourself to a serious relationship. if it's only a passing infatuation, then you better box your own face and "wake up your idea".
when you love someone, you will not want to see that person sad and depressed. such is the power of love. don't underestimate what love can do to you.
wish i could talk more.. and make more sense, but i'm rushing for time. so i guess i shall stop here for now. shall find some other thing to talk abt next time.. until then,
the sweetest dreams to all of you out there. keep smiling. oh to hell with physics.. i shall just read my lect notes.. okay.. school was boring.. nothing much to talk about today.. got back my physics.. i passed!!! haha.. i got 53%.. damn.. i just needed 2 more marks for the paper to get a 55%.. oh well.. count my lucky stars that i passed.. haha.. did i mention the highest in the class is only 56%? haha.. oh, and kwee also said that i passed my econs, but i have no idea what grade..
lit, for ppr 1, tchr said that most ppl who did the context qn did well.. i did the context qn.. haha.. but for ppr 3, tchr said that those who did context qn did badly.. again, this was what i did.. sigh..
math is another confirmed failure.. haha.. marks in the class range frm 8-64.. haha.. hope i can get at least 20 plus? lolz..
had this premonition that i wld be the only one in my class to fail GP.. then i broke down and the tchr came and talked to me.. asked me wad my O level english grade was.. "madam, i got an A1.. what happened to me??!!!" haha.. that was my reply.. i just hope i don't fail.. i mean i'm english educated goddammit.. if i don't do well in chinese its acceptable.. but english??!!! gees..
met a few of ming's classmates today.. charmaine, bennita, keshia, ann.. what a cute and cool bunch of ppl :).. one of them(shall not mention names) had had a bad experience with a guy studying in CJ now(shall not mention names).. from what i know, that guy is a bas***d anyway.. screw those kinda guys manx.. they just deserved to burn in hell..
tmr having youth day celebrations in sch.. kinda laggy eh? but oh well.. get to be dismissed at like 1030 plus? cool right??!! haha.. but the stoooopid problem is that i have my A's oral at like 2? damn shite lahz.. after towning still must go back to sch.. totally sux..
anyway, i must start preparing for the promos soon.. haha.. me trying to get AAAA okay.. haha.. what a dream right? but hey, if you don't dream, you aren't human.. dreams and aspirations drive u to do well.. hope the motivation is there.. haha..
shall try to do some physics now.. haha.. hope i can do like at least 1/4 of the questions..
adios~
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
wooooooooo hooooooooooo!!!! didnt get back results today!!!!!!!!!!Tuesday, July 06, 2004
okay world.. exams are finally oover.. Finally.. now the terror comes.. the RESULTS.. shrugs.. i'm sure i did badly.. probably E's and D's all the way? damn, should have studied a little harder.. i'm too playful.. i must change that.. haha.. wheeeee~over the past week, spent lotsa time with ppl, esp ming.. went shopping, eating, and just to chill.. but owing to the limited space in singapore, we covered only Raffles City, Suntec and the classic Orchard Road.. yep, how pathetic..
ming and i are retards.. we've done stooooopid things like talk to fishes, and even write a complaint letter to NOOCH for their "excellent service rendered to us during our dining experience".. right. don't bother to go there during weekends.. anyway, that silly girl did something embarrassing at KFC, which i shan't say, to protect her privacy yes? haha..
visited NP too.. wished i had done mass comm or something.. or since i'm in the JC, should have taken arts instead.. damn.. i love to talk.. typical of such courses.. but oh well, i'm taking science officially, but i have lit too.. haha.. oh well, guess i have to change the stereotyped thinking that science ppl cannot talk..
at least now i can 'relek' a little.. can play tennis again every week.. yippie.. and ohoh.. soccer once in a while.. haha..
and lame jokes too!!! oh i miss them.. had to stop telling/hearing lame jokes cuz they lower one's IQ.. my IQ is low enough.. lolz..
okie world.. shall talk to u soon.. :)
ciao
Saturday, July 03, 2004
i shall not bitch abt the exams..i shall not talk about the past..
i just have some questions, which has been on my mind for some time.
how would you feel if your bf/gf starts to become different?
how would you feel if your bf/gf starts(begins) mixing around with more gals/boys?
how would you feel if your bf/gf/friends don't keep their promises?
how would you feel if one day you wake up and find no one there for you?
one should ponder on such questions..
